Graduation

His course is over and the worst is yet to come But he made it.
I still can't get over that he is finally back to half way normal, this morning we were texting and it felt weird, it felt like if he got caught I'd get a call later saying he would not be home he was cb'd etc.. He is in his unit now and we can go back to having him leave early in the am come home for a shower and some breakfast and then gone until lunch time and then back for an hour and then gone for a bit and home anywhere between 2-4 .. Things will still very much be unknown but at least I will know he will be home each night and he can contact us etc..

He wants to take 2 months off for parental leave and after sitting down and really talking about it I really think I could be OK with it, I don't want him to take any time off I want him to go on with the career and just get things moving, But he really feels like he has missed so much and will miss so much more that he just wants to be home for a little while, Tanner is doing many new things and will be doing so many exciting things it would be pretty awesome forAJ to get to see them first hand and not just pictures or videos .. As I said after really listening to him talk and tell me why I do understand and it could be good for us, it could be great to have that time to be just us as a family before things get out of hand and before we know it he is gone for 6 months

I was so very proud yesterday and he looked so great in his dress uniform*drool* He has come such a long way and I can't say it enough how much I love him and how proud I am, his dad and step mom as well as her mom were able to come from N.S to be part of the day and I think that really meantalot to AJ . I think deep down he is pretty proud because he just has said "this is for you guys this is for my family and Tanner has helped me push through".
There were many times he wanted to give up or just quit but he didn't he knew we were hear waiting with arms open just to be there for him, I sure as hell did not make things easy on the poor guy with so manyinsecurities and being so lost without him but he still held strong for himself and me as well even tho it should have been me keeping super strong.