The first week in my new look on life was amazing ..
I really don't understand how myself and someone else thought we were friends at all I finally seen the true colors to this person and really did not like it, I think I was blinded before and just wanted to keep the peace etc.. I for one thought we had oh so much in common same type of family background with the exception of my parents being married for 27 years and Hers being remarried we both had a baby in 2004 only two months apart back then both had loser boyfriends and ended up kicking them to the curb both really close with our moms and family and both having brothers who are not so great sometimes, However I came to realize I know nothing about this person and really don't like them very much as we have nothing in common and we were only friends due to a few similarities.
Wow It took about 5 years to see that .. anyway I have a beautiful family, all the love anyone could ever imagine .. my own mind my own ideas etc.. a nice house, we have a good car (although we need to upgrade to a van) great new friends around us and are a military family .. this person I thought was a best friend someone I could trust and we would be like sisters forever is just to jealous and vindictive/copy cat it's like wow stop trying to be me, stop trying to live my life .. you live at home your almost 27 you sat on welfare just because you were to lazy to work you don't parent your child and let him almost hurt a teeny baby TWICE! .. you whine about your life and how you don't wanna be alone yet you will settle for the first loser who will look at you you play the poor me my kid will be forgot about when finding out I was having a boy and just really took that moment from us, people warned me over and over about her and I never listened until NOW.
How did I ever think we had anything in common? I got a tattoo this person got the same thing .. I buy something for my kids she buys the same thing this has been going on now since I was pg with Maddy .. Ugh I am so glad I have finally seen the light!
So this week was awesome I decided it was time to go another way and so I finally put on the big girl panties and headed out to meet some girls I'd have something in common with as Much as I wanted to stay away from all things military besides AJ's job I decided I can't do that as I have everything in common with other military wives and nothing in common with just random people.
So we went out on Wednesday night for the first ever girls night in O'Town sat around talked had some drinks something to eat .. what a great group of ladies and everyone seemed to get along wonderfully I had a blast and even tho it was huge for me I really don't know what I have been thinking .. however everyone else seemed to have the same story and we all just decided we could not sit in the house anymore we need friends! .. so then on Thursday it was a play date and so many people came with their kids it was alot of fun to again sit around while the kids played and have adult conversation with people who had lots in common and could really understand the other.
Thursday evening we had so much fun at the play date that everyone decided to meet at a park, some of the husbands came too and had a chance to meet as well so it looks like there are some couple's nights in the works as well.
This week Tanner also tried some new things he tried his new mesh feeder and really seemed to enjoy the first grape of his life poor guy kept gaging himself by putting the thing in his mouth to far about like he does his fingers .. He also tried a sippy cup and caught on to the idea of it really fast although he doesn't seem to be a huge water fan, then this morning he started sitting on his own wow where has my little baby gone the time has just slipped right through my fingers!
Tonight we are going to buy house stuff as we have come into MORE unexpected money we are so set now and have a great savings started .. at this rate I never have to work and we could still have 4 kids although I am thinking 3 will be good for me :) Course is almost over and AJ is taking two months leave so we are planing lots I can't wait to have so much time together.
I just feel so awesome this week this is what I have been waiting for and it just took really thinking and realizing alot even though I hadn't wanted to .. I feel so great and love the new outlook on life plus I am super grateful to have had the chance to get what looks like could be a great friend back in my life after a fall out because I chose to listen to others and believe they were looking out for my best interest all the while it was some game or something .. anyway I am to old for games and all that b/s so this new life is mine I can't wait to really start getting to know people and getting out of the house with or with out the kids! I want quality over quantity in friends I want people I can value and really look to in a time of need and I think we may have found that!
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