Questions?

So many thoughts and questions I am sure others have as well
I find myself always wondering all these What,When,Where And Who questions and as I sit and my mind over works I keep thinking deeper and deeper .. I wonder does everyone get the chance at love like I have found? Does everyone get their one great love? that special person who takes their breath away that someone who you can't fully function without, the one person who makes you smile,laugh and cry the one who makes your blood boil yet you know they are always there for you they will never try to hurt you.

I often wonder what did I do to deserve the love I have found, I have the most wonderful man in my life and even after many problems and lots of pushing him away and keeping walls up around my heart he still fought to break those walls down and he continued to love me as I pushed we now have what I would call a wonderful life and so much love for one another so much love for our family.

I wonder how it is decided who finds such great love and who doesn't is there someone out there for everyone and do they just miss that chance because they are to consumed with other things in life or is there something in the cards that says so and so will be alone .. or so and so will have a long relationship or so and so will be married with kids I have failed to understand "God's Plan" on many occasions and I sometime believe that saying " you are never given more then you can handle" and other times I question it all.

I guess I am one of the lucky ones I know what I want in life and I know how to get it, I knew I would one day have my "one true love" and I now do yet he came to me at a time in my life I did not expect at all I was not looking I was not even worried about a man in my life at the time .. I feel as though I shouldn't talk about us with some because they don't have what I have yet they are longing for it and more then likely they are way more deserving of it then I am!